The Public vs. Breastfeeding

Hey guys,
I know it's been a while since my last post. This was a busy week and I need to fill you in on some things.
Well, I wanted to start off first with what happened to me at the doctor's office. I had an appointment at 2:00pm, we arrive around 1:45pm and Leland was with me. However I made sure to feed him ahead of time so he won't get hungry or fussy. There's one thing about my son, he will smile and laugh with you all day, but fail to feed him on time or whether he's hungry, well you got one mean, grumpy gill! Luckily, the waiting room was almost empty, maybe 2 people there. Anywho, Leland was doing great! Lots of Coo-ing and playing. I guess the doctor was running behind on things (I don't know how considering there was barely anyone there) anyways, let's not get off track lol. I happened to only bring one toy for him and clearly he was bored of it because he started to get very fussy. As a mother you learn your childs cries to a T. Theres a  type of Cry for hunger, one for sleepy, one for poopy and so forth. This Cry...was hungry!! not just hungry more like Starving. lol He wanted food ASAP! Not a problem Leland, Good thing about being a mommy is we have "leche" everywhere we go. Nice and warm and in the perfect bottle. :) Now, I don't have a problem with feeding my son in public & neither does my husband. As long as I cover up. They make nursing covers or even a large recieving blanket for these type of incidents. As I'm getting myself ready, 1 couple appear, 2 couples...5 couples! OK! WHOA!! Why the world does everyone need to NOW show up?

Again, I don't have a problem feeding Leland, but, as a new mom I do get a little shy sometimes. It's a new thing for me. That won't stop me though.  Either way everyone is doing their own thing in the waiting room.

Leland is a happy camper now. He has his "leche". While I'm Breast-feeding, me and my mother start to talk. Gradually, People start to realize I'm feeding my son. Is it really such a bad thing to do in public? Breast-feeding is legal in many states, Florida being one of them. If you where hungry, would you not want to grab something to eat? or do you need to hide in the bathroom so No-one see's you? Of course not! My son's way of eating happens to be through me.
There was this one lady who would not stop looking at me. I find it rude but, it's no surprise to me because breast-feeding is no longer AS common as it once was. In fact, Homesexuality is more common along-side Teen Pregnancy then breastfeeding. People no longer stare or surprised at these things because it has been acustomed to their lifestlyes.
Even the front desk Receptionist was dazed. Hello, We are in an OB/GYN office.

Some moms I've come to know, wanted to breastfeed but never recieved the support or help. It takes a lot of work and dedication. I wish there was a bigger support team or group out there for young mommies with breastfeeding.

Anywho, Leland was happy after his feeding and all I did was have a huge smile :) on my face because I was a Proud mommy who just fed her son. There is nothing better in knowing that your children are well taken care of regarless of who's looking or pointing or ect.

I rest my case!


xoxo,

Sasha & Leland.




At the doctors office.

(i look a little crazy btw!)





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One of Dem' Days.

I'm Pretty sure I don't suffer From post partum depression, but, I get my moments. This week has been my longest week of feeling down. All  I seem to think about is my Cesarean. I wanted to birth leland Vaginally so bad. I feel like I was robbed. I notice The way leland is with his father and the way he is with me. He is so different. If he's fussy with me, he's not with his father. I can do some things and he might not like it, but if his father does the same exact thing he is loving it. Now, I know I shouldn't be over reacting, but, I'm a firm believer that first contact is VERY IMPORTANT.! My husband was the first to hold leland and introduce himself. Although, I gave him a kiss and told him I'm Momma, I was so drugged up and loopy that I barely remember that. When I was then rolled out the room, my first question to the doctor was "can i breast-feed my son?" Thinking Ok, here's my chance to have skin to skin with him. Well, I couldn't do that either, due to him having low sugars and formula needed to be given immediately. I didn't get to actually hold my son to probably the next morning where all the drugs where worn off.  Those moments I had pictured never came true. And now i Feel like leland rather be with his poppa than me more.
If we ever decided to grow our family, I wont be able to deliver vaginally, EVER! It really bothers me, because to me that is one of the most important things in becoming a mother. My belief. Some people like to plan ahead and schedule C-Sections ect. to each its own, but, for me I wanted to feel that relief of a child coming out. I was able to feel the contractions and Ect for a while, but never that relief. and I wanted that!!
What's also making me a little flustered is the fact that My days are always planned around baby. I can't seem to have a minute to myself. I recently just joined a gym and have yet to go. I'm so eager to get my body back in shape and at least looking ready for the beach this summer. But, it seems to me that day will never come. I go walking with Boo and We do morning jumping jacks but, I want to go to regular classes. Basically, what i need is a couple hours to myself. No husband, no Leland, no job, no stress. After leland was born I was re admitted for post hypetension. And since I've been so stressed I can feel my pressure rising.
If I would of made a wise decision with going with an OB instead of a midwife maybe this chain of bad things would of never happened. Everyone tells me this fluster-ness is all normal, I'm a first time mom, It will take time. I can understand that, but for me it won't. I will never be able to deliver a child vaginally again. That bothers me. I feel different from other mommies who have delivered normally. I can't find a connection.

P.s- One thing I am Grateful for, Is breast-feeding. Leland loves his momma's che-che's! :)
I will blog about that next time. Breast-feeding Leland. That always seem's to put a smile on my face.

XOXO,

Sasha

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